Slivered

"What if the lawns were not green, our trees were gone." We would no longer have leaves dangling over the fence. "Industry, industry."

Atmosphere

Repeated after

"To What End?" Has become my recent, repeated motto/saying.

For a good reason, too. It embodies my complete outlook on my/our state of being. At the beginning of summer '09, I was agnostic. Throughout the progression of the summer, I eventually became an atheist. One story motivated such -

"Upon the beginning, there was a universe. The universe was endless and ever-evolving. Inside of the universe was many galaxies which each held many solar systems. Within on solar system - which we shall direct our attention towards - was a planet. On the planet was a kingdom of animals. Their species grew as their beings learned to adapt. The evolved and obtained knowledge. They taught themselves life. They obtained the power to destroy, create, build, breed, idealize, and maintain a sustainable life. The species survived with their creations and knowledge. Then, the planet exploded. The explosion caused no more then a mere hiccup within the solar system. To the universe, it was but a cell falling off."

Of course, this story makes perfect sense to us all - and even those who admit to themselves that the Earth is apart of something bigger. "Of course, dear Madeline, the Earth is nothing more then a planet. We are no more then a civilization on such planet." Of course! Of course! Then excuse me for pointing out, so! But let me continue, because I do persist -

To what end do we search/create/ask/beg/answer/enlighten/dare/live/etc.? I have been told that living - our existence - is nothing more then to enlighten ourselves with knowledge and make the most of our lives. I still insist that we live to survive (survival being the fundamental reason). We must admit the nihilistic being of living, for unfortunately to some, is inevitable. But, with an acceptance of nihilistic attributes within life, we can move on from such. To what end do we continue to persist? We are as it has been, as it will be. The people I hate, the rules that restrict me, the government that controls my laws, are, of course, inevitable. Then why would I struggle against it? People are so interesting, in their most peculiar ways.

I hold my tongue and observe, for you do not know how you behave.